......Just One of the reasons I've been M.I.A.........

The Eldest He-Devil has been to the Big City :0)

to compete in Dance for Country Week with his dance crew from School

(0: They R☆CKED the house :0)

...Then...

☆☆☆LOVE IT☆☆☆
Our little Stars Josh, Holly & Jacinta were helped along the road to ST☆RDOM by the AWESOME independent Australian dance artist Josh Mu {{shouts out to Josh}} and led by STEPS' Artistic Director Alice Lee Holland {{Go Alice}}.

This is the STEP's Workshop that Josh won a bursary for :0)

Proud Mumma ♥ ♥ ♥ Can you spot our babies in the video?

STEPS Youth Dance Company

Freerange Workshop 2010

The above link should take you to the Video put together

by the STEP's Team :0)

ok...just pointing out our stars☆☆☆ because I can:0) Josh cartwheels through the near group at the 57 sec count then lifts Sam up and through the group. Josh has the blonde flash in his fringe...our Miss Holly follows straight on @ the 1.09 sec mark. Holly is the last dancer in the wave, left side of screen that powers the move back down the line and our dear Jarr (aka Jacinta) is the blonde in the back row {whipping up some awesome floorwork Miss Jarr} @ the 1.22 mark :0) ☆☆☆
are we proud...DAYMN RIGHT WE ARE :0)

I can't believe they've been kickin' it since they were FOUR!!!

♥♥♥ Yes FOUR ♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥or that 12 years after first meeting♥♥♥♥♥

♡♡♡these two are a couple♡♡♡

Very Cute

I was reminded of a couple of quotes over the space of the fortnight Josh and I spent away

I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing.
-- Agatha Christie

and

Every defeat, every heartbreak, every loss, contains its own seed, its own lesson on how to improve your performance the next time.
-- Og Mandino

The first day of Country Week was the third anniversary of Josh's father's death.

Our boy shone brightly and owned his place in space.

He, along with his sisters, have shone in the face of adversity and I am very VERY proud of each of them.

BELIEVE

that

in the face of adversity

that you too can shine

☆☆☆I DO☆☆☆

xXx

Jewelz

Sometimes Less IS More

I talk :0)

I talk alot :0)

I have been busting to get back to blogging.

So yesterday, on a day that my head was spinning with thoughts,

instead of doing what I would normally do

I did the opposite

I stepped out of my comfort zone

I spent a moment in time being quiet, standing still.

and the world kept spinning around me

no sh!T go figure :0)

I put a lot of pressure on myself.

ME? I put pressure on myself, no sh!T go figure :0)

I put so much pressure on myself to find the PERFECT shot to post for Wordless Wednesday

I ended up posting NOTHING!

If I posted the photos I wanted to post

I'm sure they would have been oooHHhhh and awhhhed over

HOWEVER

I didn't want to convey an ooOhHhh  awhhhh happy happy moment

I wanted people to be sad when they looked at the photo

because I was feeling sad.

I would have posted a half page essay explaining why I wanted to post a particular photo 

One I'd rather you

 silently observe

and that would have not been a

Wordless Wednesday

I postponed posting

and I am ok with that

what did I want to post

.........this..........

Our first born in his Fathers arms

Three Years ago yesterday, the little babe in this photo carried the man in this photo.

It was a bizarre juxtoposition! 

I watched it, I pinched myself, it was not real.

I didn't want it to be real.

I practiced denial....

....and I believe that three years ago, denial helped me get through the day.

Now three years on I believe I am starting to accept that this man is no longer with us, 

in an earthly sense that is

Three years ago my eldest child, my son, carried his father's coffin.

It was the closest he or one of his siblings had physically been to their father in well over four years.

My heart ached on so many different levels back then.

Today it mostly hurts

☆☆☆because he would be so proud of how bright our little stars are shining☆☆☆

it hurts me, because when I watch them succeed,

my heart is bursting with pride....more than enough for two people!

the aching in my breast is a good ache

We created these gorgeous talented people Murray

They miss you

I miss you

Thank You Murray

xXxJewelz

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤O M G❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

THAT'S ALL FOR TODAY

JUST 

O   M    G

....WEEEELLLLLL THAT....

AND

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I

SUPPOSE

I

NOW

TRUELY

BELIEVE

THAT

SOMETIMES

LESS

IS

MORE

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.

YES

JUST

FOR

A

CHANGE

I

AM

GOING

TO

TALK

LESS

AND

LISTEN

MORE

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BUT

ABOVE

ALL

ELSE

I

WILL

BELIEVE 

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INTREEEEEEEEGED

STAY

TUNED

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.

WATCH

THIS

SPACE

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I

AM

GOING

TO

SHOW

YOU

HOW

TO

LEARN

HOW

TO

BELIEVE

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BELIEVE

ME

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YOU'LL

BE

BACK

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.

CHEERS

xXx

Jewelz

✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩I BELIEVE✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩

✩✩HAPPY NEW YEAR✩✩

Hello 2010

resolutions seem so much like hard work

people make them

and break them

then get down on themselves

because they couldn't keep them

I am going to be a little easier on myself this year.

For the last few years I have watched a few of my favorite

Bloggers choose words to guide them through their year.

I've always seemed to have a hard time coming up with just one word.

In the past I had been torn between different words, and I always seemed to choose words that others had chosen, then felt like a bit of a fraud using

'their words'.

Perhaps the problem wasn't that I felt like I was being a copy-cat if I used the same word as someone else,

I think the problem was that I didn't believe that the right word had come to me.

This year however, is different.

I knew what word would become my mantra, so to speak.

!!!BELIEVE!!!

I have a hard time with Belief in so many different areas of my life.

At the core of it though, I think my biggest problem is that I did not believe in myself.

I did not believe that I was worthy.

This year I BELIEVE I can change those feelings.

I BELIEVE I CAN.

I am in no way under the impression that it will be easy.

I BELIEVE it will take great conscious effort on my behalf

to change a habit developed long long ago.

STILL, I BELIEVE I CAN

This year

I will BELIEVE.

I DO BELIEVE.

Hello 2010

I BELIEVE THIS YEAR WILL HOLD MANY WONDERS

and

I BELIEVE I WILL ENJOY 2010

I BELIEVE IT WILL BE A GREAT YEAR

♡for myself♡

AND

♡my family♡

♡and my dear friends♡

Do you have a particular word or saying you have chosen to adopt as your mantra this year?

If so , please share.

I love how one little word can have such a powerful effect

if you only

BELIEVE

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Thanks for dropping by.

Bring it on 2010

CHEERS

xXx

Jewelz